What would it take to live the life of your dreams? What would it take to let go of a life that isn't serving you? What would it take to choose a different possibility - RIGHT NOW?
I found myself asking these questions and many more late in 2013. From the outside it looked like I had it all - a beautiful child, a happy marriage, a job as an airline pilot. Not many people knew the truth - we were on the verge of a divorce, I was feeling unfulfilled, and I was aware I had more to offer the world than just flying people home for Thanksgiving. My soul kept calling for more. More love. More gratitude. More joy.
I didn't know how to make it happen, I only knew that I was ready for a change. I was ready to step off the cliff and out into the world. As luck would have it, my husband felt the same way. He quit his job, we put our house on the market and sold all of our stuff. We planned to spend an undetermined amount of time traveling around the world - healing our family, living our dream, and inviting others to do the same.
Two days before the first leg of our trip in July 2014, we found out I was pregnant with twins. Surprise! As you can imagine, this came as a bit of a shock and changed our plans significantly. We traveled to 5 countries and various states from July to October, and settled back into a rented house in Pittsburgh on December 1. We had a month to get the house in order before the twins arrived six weeks early on December 31, 2014. New Years Eve will never be the same again.
The twins are almost 5 months old now as I update this page in May, 2015. I've only traveled once in six months, the longest period I've been in one city for almost 20 years. Needless to say, I'm getting restless and ready to hit the road again. I have no idea when that will happen, as my husband just went back to the 9-5 grind and the boys still don't have their passports. I'm learning to be content at home while dreaming of far-off places and cultures.
As a recovering control freak of magnitude, one of the lessons this experience has taught me is to let go of expectations and the need for something to show up in a certain way. Things will never show up the way I think they will, and I'm learning that that's ok. Not only is it ok, but sometimes it shows up even better than I could have planned in the first place.
"The moment you buy into the idea that you can be limited, you stop the space that allows creation." Gary Douglas