My husband was an angel yesterday and volunteered to watch all 3 boys so I could attend a literary event with some local writers. My first book, Creations, which I co-author, is due out next month and I thought it would be fun to meet some local authors and make some connections.
The boys left for hockey practice at 9am, and my event started at 10. The previous night had been another in a string of many where sleep eluded me, or more accurately, had eluded my 8 month old twins. All I wanted to do was crawl back into bed, as it was the first time since they were born that I had the house all to myself.
I posted a YouTube video last week about choosing things the way we did when we were children. Not choosing from guilt, not choosing what we SHOULD do or feel we HAVE to do, but choosing from the pure desire of it. Even after 40 positive comments from people about the video, I still had a hard time shaking the guilt and crawling back into bed.
As I stared at the ceiling, willing myself to be ok with my decision, I actually thought to ask a question. What will I create if I get up and go now (sleep deprivation, half paying attention, can't form a cohesive thought or remember who I meet brain fog), vs what will happen if I stay in bed? I was asleep before I answered the question.
Turns out I made an awesome choice to arrive at the event a few hours late. In fact, I probably could have used a little more sleep. I stopped to get gas on my way to the event, and it is amazing how far the gas nozzle flies when you pull away from the pump with it still attached to your car. (There are those that have and those that will. Trust me, I thought I was immune too.)
Even though I arrived late, I still managed to meet some lovely authors, find some sweet inspiration, and even win the gift basket that was auctioned off with all of the books from the event. How does it get any better than that?
So the next time you find yourself toying with what you SHOULD do and what you DESIRE to do, I wonder what would happen if you asked yourself a question? What would it create in my life if I choose A? And what would it create in my life if I choose B? And then, and here's the tricky part, follow the one that creates the most, regardless of what your rational mind tells you. Oh, and here's an even better question that might make it even easier to choose - What would I choose if I were 6 years old? And then go for it. I double dog dare ya!