Transformation. A new beginning. It didn't happen overnight, but it feels as if it did. It is as if I have flipped the light switch and connected the circuit to myself. Confidence, security, embracing my femininity, these were all foreign concepts to me just last week.
I don't know exactly what happened to unlock this gift within me, all I know is that it feels amazing. I am dancing freely (I never knew my hips could move like that), I am speaking with confidence in my workshops, and when people tell me I am beautiful I accept the compliment with grace, rather then shying away from it in embarrassment because it feels untrue.
I woke up this morning singing Om Namah Shivaya, a meditation mantra I experienced for the first time this weekend. I had no idea what it meant, but a charge of electricity ran through my body each time I said the words. When I looked it up this morning I found this explanation -
"It means I bow to Shiva. (Shiva) is the name given to consciousness that dwells in all. Shiva is the name of your true identity - your self." - From www.meditationiseasy.com.
Our theme for the weekend at Summer Rhythm Renewal was connection, and we were encouraged to find our edge and push past it. I did both. I connected with many fascinating people, but the most interesting person I connected with was myself. I've met this person in the past, and never felt comfortable around her. Suddenly I see her for what she is - and embrace the beauty, the grace, and the possibility she possesses. I am blessed to have re-connected with her.