Well, I've officially fallen off the wagon. And it was all due to a good friend of mine. Actually, I can't blame her, I know I'm responsible for my own actions. Her goal for the night was to get me to have a glass of wine, and my weakling will-power acquiesced quite quickly. She's just lucky I enjoy her company, otherwise I'd have to remove myself from the peer pressure. And being one of my few regular blog readers she gives me good advice. So I guess I will just have to develop some restraint.
How was the glass of wine, you ask? I felt guilty the whole time I was drinking it, and I was mad at myself for not stopping at one glass. I didn't feel any worse this morning than I have the rest of the week, so I guess maybe it's time to start enjoying food again.
I'm just concerned that it's a slippery slope. Once I start having one glass of wine, I'l end up drinking the whole bottle. A plate of pasta and I'll start wanting it every night. And oh, do I want some dairy. During the diet, I knew I couldn't cheat at all so it was easy to control myself. I had it in my head I was going to make it thirty days, and I was determined to do it. It was a contest with myself, and I do love to win.
My concern now is that I have never been the type to have self control with food. If I have one piece of candy, I end up eating half of the box. It's not just one scoop of ice cream, but two. I just hope I can control myself once I start eating delicious things again. I'm still going to attempt to stay off of the wheat, sugar and dairy for a while. Well, except for the yogurt. I have been craving that for weeks now, so I think that might be my next indulgence.
I attempted to cut open my first coconut today. It was a lot of work, and then it ended up being pink inside. What a disappointment. I did taste some of the water, I hope I don't end up with food poisoning. Maybe I'll just keep buying the coconut water in a container. I'm going to attempt miso soup tomorrow. Hopefully, I'll have better luck with that.
My husband just told me it takes a certain number of days for something to become a habit. When I googled it, I found everything from 21 to 66. I just hope it's less than 35, which is about how long I have been on the diet. I think it has definitely changed the way I eat, and hopefully I can continue with the good habits. I guess only time, and the size of my jeans, will tell.